Some days,
when the pressure is high,
I feel like I'm going to die.
The enemy in his evil ways,
Wants me to believe a lie,
But I look up to the heavens and cry!
The Lord always comes to my rescue.
In His Wisdom, gives me a cue.
That with faith and power I must continue.
And remind myself of who I belong to.
My heavenly Father, You created me, I belong to You.
Holy Spirit, You gave me life, my spirit is bound to You.
Jesus Christ, You rescued my soul, I abide in You.
Lord God,
May Your children get to know You, God.
In their hearts, may they receive You, God.
For You are...
The First and the Last,
The Beginning and the End.
You are the Keeper of creation,
And the Creator of all.
You are the Architect of the universe,
And the Manager of all time.
You always were,
Always are,
And always will be,
Unmoved, unchanged, undefeated,
And never undone.
You were bruised,
But bring healing.
You were pierced,
But ease pain.
You were persecuted,
But bring freedom.
You were dead,
But bring life.
You are risen to bring power,
And you reign to bring peace.
The world can't understand You.
Armies can't defeat You.
Schools can't explain You.
And leaders, they can't ignore You.
Herod couldn't kill You.
Nero couldn't crush You.
The new age, cannot replace You.
You are Life,
Love,
Longevity,
And you are THE LORD.
You are Goodness,
And Kindness,
And Faithfulness,
And You are GOD.
You are Holy,
Righteous,
Powerful,
And Pure.
Your Ways are right,
Your Word is eternal,
Your Will is unchanging,
And your Mind is on me.
You are my Saviour,
My Guide,
My Peace,
My Joy,
My Comfort,
My Lord,
And You rule my life.
Your bond is love.
Your yoke is easy,
Your burden is light,
And Your goal for me is an abundant life.
You are the Wisdom of the wise,
The Power of the powerful,
The Ancient of days,
The Ruler of all rulers,
The Leader of all leaders,
And Your goal is a relationship with me.
You will never leave me,
Never mislead me,
Never forsake me,
Never overlook me,
And never cancel my appointment,
In Your appointment book.
When I fall,
You'll lift me up.
When I fail,
You'll forgive me.
When I'm weak,
You're strong.
When I'm lost,
You're my Way.
When I'm afraid,
You're my Courage.
When I stumble,
You steady me.
In my hurt and my sickness,
You'll heal me.
When I'm broken,
You'll mend me.
When I'm blind,
You'll lead me.
And when I'm hungry,
You'll feed me.
When I face trials,
You are with me.
When I face persecution,
You shield me.
When I face problems,
You comfort me and solve them.
When I face loss,
You'll provide for me.
And when I face death,
You'll carry me home to heaven to be with you.
You are Everything,
To everybody,
Everywhere,
Every time,
And in every way,
You are my Lord, My God, The Rock, My Saviour.
And THAT, dear friends, dear world, is who I belong to.
And you, who do YOU belong to?
Elvira, chosen to teach the mysteries of Jesus Christ and appointed as an ambassador of His Kingdom by the will of God,
To the nations called to be the apple of His Eye: Grace and peace to you from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.
We have been talking about true repentance in previous epistles. We have explained why true repentance is not just telling God we sinned, but committing ourselves to abandoning those sins. We have also explained that unless we change our mental conditioning about sin and radically modify our beliefs to align them with the beliefs that the Lord Jesus teaches us, we will continue to struggle with the iniquity inside of us that causes us to sin.
We have explained and concluded that it is when the Light of God shines in us and blots out the darkness within us that our iniquity is cleansed by the Blood of Jesus, who is the only One who has the power to redeem our souls from our sinful ways, because of the price He paid by dying for us and shedding His Blood for the atonement of our sins.
Reconditioning ourselves to the Truth of Christ is true repentance.
That is the key.
An important component necessary to achieve this is getting to know Christ. It is by getting to know Him and understanding His Sovereign nature that we develop the Fear of God, which means to have reverence for His Holiness.
The knowledge of the Lord enables us to understand His Truth which removes the veil of blindness and ignorance from our eyes so we can see His Light. We need the truth of His Wisdom to be set free and to enjoy that freedom. This wisdom can only be acquired by seeking Him with humble hearts, and this humility of heart is acquired by developing the Fear of the Lord, which produces reverence for His Word and His Ways - leading to true repentance.
'“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.' Proverbs 9:10
This humility of heart can also be attributed to what the Bible calls poorness or brokenness of spirit. When you are poor in spirit you become like a child before the Lord and crave for His Spirit to fill you up instead of relying on yourself and your understanding. You develop absolute respect and reverence for Him, and a dire need for His presence in your life.
That is the key.
King David often portrayed this kind of poor spirit or humility of heart in his psalms. You NEED this type of humility to operate in this Kingdom. Stop being adults who think they know before God, and break yourselves in your spirit and humble yourselves in your hearts so you can experience the Lord.
'“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 'Matthew 5:3
Let's understand this clearly: capturing the depth of the depravity in which we live and the absolute and complete Holiness that The Lord encompasses is the key to the humility of the heart that allows our souls to go through true repentance. This process gives us the Fear of the Lord because we realise that God is not our mate and His Word cannot be overridden by our volatile emotions and fleshly desires.
That is the key.
We respect Him, pursue Him, and live for Him because of who He is. We seek His forgiveness (repentance) because we know that life outside Him is darkness, which causes sin, and the wages of sin is death. That is why we must train ourselves daily - by His discipline - to live holy lives and repent of our old ways to be new creations in His likeness.
'If you are not disciplined—and everyone undergoes discipline—then you are not legitimate, not true sons and daughters at all. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of spirits and live! They disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in His Holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. ' Hebrews 12:8-11
We cannot truly accept and assimilate the Truth of Christ as the ultimate Truth that is the only thing that can set us free if we do not believe in our hearts that there is no one else like Him and that it is for our good.
It is by understanding and proclaiming His unique Holiness, Righteous Character, Faithful Love, and Eternal Word that we get a reality check as to the extent to which we need Him and must repent to be in right standing with Him - living according to His Will and purposes.
That is the key.
After accepting the Lord's call in 2021, He put me on a strict regime of reading the Word, spending time in worship, and praying and fasting for an intense soul, mind and heart renewal.
I wrote the poem above around that time, inspired by one of the Lord's faithful servants' sermons. During that time - and to this day - He asked me to recite this poem over and over and over again. The goal was the reconditioning of my mind, and the purification of my heart to get to a point where I know the God I serve, and can connect to Him and instinctively understand His Ways because He has access to my heart. I developed a proper Fear of the Lord and began to feel compelled to repent all the time.
By getting to know Him, I was drawn closer to Him and began to seek freedom from anything that went against His Will. Remember that the Lord dwells in the praises of His people, so He began to dwell in my heart because my heart dwelled in His praise.
I would recite this poem seven times in the morning, seven times at noon, and seven times in the evening. At some point, I made a recording of it on my phone and would let it play in the background whilst I was at home, or in my headset whilst tending to my office work, being on the train, going grocery shopping, etc. Sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night and hear myself reciting this poem subconsciously. It still happens today when I use it in my worship.
I invite you to try this same exercise today. For it to work, you must recite the poem repetitively and consistently over some time - for at least a week.
As you do this, you will feel His Light germinating inside you in ways you can't quite explain. You will feel a peace wash over you with gentleness and love that will lift all of the grief, bitterness and hurt from your heart. It is indescribable.
Stop listening to the junk of the world, and filter the things your mouth speaks, your eyes see, and your ears hear. These organs are gates through which darkness can contaminate your heart if you allow it to.
'So be careful how you listen; for whoever has [a teachable heart], to him more [understanding] will be given; and whoever does not have [a longing for truth], even what he thinks he has will be taken away from him.” [Matt 13:12; 25:29; Mark 4:25] ' Luke 8:18
The more you hear something, the more you believe it. The more you say something, the more it takes root and becomes the truth in your life: your words bear fruit. Stop mindlessly listening to songs, what do the lyrics say? Stop mindlessly watching movies, does the moral of the story align with God's Will? Stop putting curses on yourself, your children, and those around you with your speech because death and life are in the power of the tongue.
This is true repentance that leads to fruitfulness.
'Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.' Proverbs 18:21
These are gates through which you can either come closer to God or stray away from Him and you will eat their fruits. Protect your gates and surround them with the Righteousness of Christ, instead of the death of darkness. Many of you have locked yourselves up into prisons and pits using your tongues, the things you listen to, and the things you watch that build strongholds in your hearts. Use your gates to repent and be more like Christ, instead of chasing things of the world.
This is true repentance that leads to holiness.
'Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. ' Colossians 3:5-10
Replace what you once allowed through your gates with things from above, so that heaven's culture can become yours.
This is true repentance that leads to righteousness.
'Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. ' Colossians 3:1-4
Only our Lord Jesus is The true Gate to life and only Him deserves for your gates to be in tune with Him, remind yourselves of that so that you do not give into the seduction of the evil one.
This is true repentance that leads to green pastures.
'I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved. They will come in and go out, and find pasture. 'John 10:9
For some of you suffering from anxiety, depression and other mental illnesses, if you do the exercise above with diligence you will find permanent healing from such issues. Your mind, thoughts, and spirit will connect to His Glory, tapping into a higher realm where sickness does not exist. The Spirit of God inside you will be fanned and His Power will restore your mind.
This is true repentance that leads to healing.
'For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.' II Timothy 1:7
Dwell in His praise and invite His Light into your heart. As you increase in fellowship with Him everything that is not from Him inside you will have to leave. Light and darkness cannot coexist.
This is true repentance that leads to light.
'Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? ' 2 Corinthians 6:14
Allow His nature to purify your heart and fix your attitude. Reconnect to your Creator through powerful declarations of His Might in praise to Him. Worship Him with a humble spirit so you can fortify your faith and edify your soul to think like the Children of a loving God, instead of children of the world.
This is true repentance that leads to purity.
'See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know Him. Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is. All who have this hope in Him purify themselves, just as He is pure. ' 1 John 3:1-3
Your freedom is on the other end of a pure heart, purity of heart is the state you must come to for you to be able to be in continuous repentance and fellowship with God - which is a necessity and priority in the life of a Kingdom Citizen.
That is the key.
'Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. ' Matthew 5:8
Remember what we discussed in the previous epistle about the fact that the forces of darkness can only affect you if they have the legal jurisdiction to do so. By repenting you are hindering their capacity to gain any legal leverage to harm you.
The kingdom of darkness succeeds in tormenting you because of your sin. When you are sinning without repentance, you are still operating under the law and not under the new covenant of the Blood of Christ, and so the penalty for sin, which is death [through all kinds of afflictions], is applied to your life. To get out of the law and into His Grace, you must repent completely.
Without real and complete repentance, when Jesus steps in to put His Blood before the just Judge as atonement for your sin, Satan can use the legal cause of lack of repentance to argue that you are not qualified to benefit from the atonement because you have not repented and cleansed yourself from that sin. At that moment, the Grace can't work and the law must be applied - and it won't be in your favour.
The sins of your bloodline also give access to darkness to hurt you because blood is the strongest element for covenants and sacrifices in the spiritual realm. Last time I checked, nobody can alter the coding of their blood nor choose the family they are born into, so whatever your forefathers did that darkness can claim, they can apply it to your life too by using your blood, which has the same root code as your forefather's blood.
For this reason, you cannot overlook the sin that is in your family. You should analyse patterns of iniquity in your family and go before God and repent for them too, or else that iniquity will continue to afflict you and your descendants from generation to generation. This is a spiritual law, and God always executes His law because He is a Just, Righteous and Holy Judge.
'And the Lord passed before him and proclaimed, “The Lord , the Lord God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abounding in goodness and truth, keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, by no means clearing the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children and the children’s children to the third and the fourth generation.”' Exodus 34:6-7
Note that in the verse above, the keyword is "guilty". He does not clear the guilty, He is a just God. When the guilty claim they have accepted Christ as their Saviour, it does not make them non-guilty if they never repented of their sin.
If you are found guilty, you shall not be spared. To remove your guilt and apply the Blood of Jesus as atonement, you must repent. It is the cleansing you undergo by His Blood that atones for your sin, and that can only happen through repentance. Repentance is what gives you a non-guilty verdict, and the Lord in His mercy will bless you and your descendants to a thousand generations because you will qualify as one who loves Him and truly pursues His Holiness.
'“Therefore know that the Lord your God, He is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and mercy for a thousand generations with those who love Him and keep His commandments; and He repays those who hate Him to their face, to destroy them. He will not be slack with him who hates Him; He will repay him to his face. Deuteronomy 7:9-10
That is the key.
Therefore, train yourselves in true repentance and repent constantly and all the time. Repentance must become your lifestyle. Each time you learn something new from the Word of God that you realise you were not applying in your life, repent of that sin immediately - including anything you may be learning right now by reading this epistle.
Rejoice, my friends!
Hurray! You are amongst the few who have found the narrow gate:
' “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. ' Matthew 7:13-14
Based on what we've covered today, here is the narrow road you will likely go through on your journey.
" -> " is to be interpreted as "leads to".
Knowledge of the Lord -> Humility of heart -> Fear of the Lord -> Pursuit of holiness -> True repentance -> Cleansing by the Blood -> Receiving His Light, which is The Truth -> Understanding of that Truth -> Applying this wisdom to your life -> Purity of heart -> Freedom from darkness -> Life.
The journey above is for those of us who want to live in total freedom and radical protection under God's Right Hand. For those of us who want to dwell in His presence. For those of us who want to bear good fruit and live lives that are worth living, for His Glory. It is a journey that never ends until we are called back to heaven by our Father because it is a constant and permanent transformation into the likeness of Christ.
It is the journey of the sanctified, who are the people who belong to Christ.
'For none of us lives for ourselves alone, and none of us dies for ourselves alone. If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. ' Romans 14:7-8
They are God's dwelling and His living temples.
'Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.' 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Being His temple is not by saying "I accept Christ as my saviour" but continuing in your sinful ways. These temples are not built by human hands but through the sanctification of our hearts and souls by the Holy Spirit inside us. You are supposed to become His Sanctuary. Becoming His Sanctuary demands that we repent constantly, sacrifice our bodies for His Glory, purify our hearts and renew our minds persistently. That is God's plan for us.
'“This is the covenant I will make with the people of Israel after that time,” declares the Lord . “I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people. No longer will they teach their neighbor, or say to one another, ‘Know the Lord ,’ because they will all know me, from the least of them to the greatest,” declares the Lord . “For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.” ' Jeremiah 31:33-34
What you currently see as a "Christian" religion does not belong to Christ, but to the world. You are not to be of the world. You may be in the world, but not of the world. Religion has made up their systems and rituals, they preach doctrines of devils and have created their own culture, the "church" culture, that does not resemble the culture that we must bear - the culture of heaven which is where our citizenship is. Do not be deceived by that.
If you are not on the journey of sanctification by His Truth, then you are not part of Jesus' Church, the true church that He recognises as His. He sanctified Himself, so that we may be sanctified. Do not be deceived, if you are not sanctified or on the journey of sanctification, you do not belong to what Christ recognises as His Church, His government on earth, His people. The Lord illustrates this in His prayer to our Father:
'I have given them Your Word and the world has hated them, for they are not of the world any more than I am of the world. My prayer is not that You take them out of the world but that You protect them from the evil one. They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. Sanctify them by the truth; Your Word is Truth. As You sent me into the world, I have sent them into the world. For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified. ' John 17:14-19
For those not willing to pay the price of sanctification by separation from the things of the world, some of you will turn to a miracle-working pastor or prophet who does great signs and wonders to try and get a "fix" for your problems with what looks like a supernatural prayer or laying of hands. Do not be deceived, most of these people are sorcerers and witches.
If they relish the display of "anointing" and "powers", tell you about spiritualism and how they speak with angels and what not, but never teach you about sin, repentance, pursing holiness, or any truth that will make you go in humility before the Lord to get to know Him deeper and change your ways and thinking so that you may be sanctified and recognised by Him as part of His Church, then flee from them! You will only end up in a deeper pit than before.
Others will bury themselves in a dead church that says that the spiritual world is not active, deliverance is not necessary, speaking in tongues is not real, seeking the Lord and communing with Him in the spiritual realm is witchcraft... etc. These churches are so tempting because they make you feel superior to others (even other Christians) and holier than thou. Know that these churches are dead and do not belong to Christ's sanctified. They are blind and deaf, under the manipulation of principalities and powers in the atmosphere.
They have created customs and rituals that keep themselves bound and in captivity and they don't even know it. They will transfer their captivity to you when you adopt their ideologies and you will never be a threat to the kingdom of darkness, and will never be free. That is all ignorance, and the devil rules by lies and ignorance of the Truth. You become a threat to the kingdom of darkness when you are a bearer of the Truth who lives by that Truth, so don't let them bury you in their ignorance. Flee from them, or else you will end up in a deeper pit than before.
Others will choose to join the mega churches that give motivational speeches in place of sermons, have carnal concerts in place of worship, and organise celebrity-filled events they call church services with special seating sections for what the world deems as "important" people - is it V.I.P, Very Important People? They will blind and trap you with their lukewarmity and worldliness.
These churches are so tempting because they are so comfortable and make you feel so good. They have mastered the art of manipulation by creating an atmosphere that gives you an adrenaline and dopamine rush that makes you think "This is what God feels like". But when you leave you are as empty as when you arrived, and even more bound than before. Beware because this atmosphere is no accident but has been specifically designed by the principalities that manipulate and govern them. Flee from them, or else you will end up in a deeper pit than before.
Others will choose to go back to witchcraft and sorcery to try and manipulate their way out of their pain, difficulties, afflictions and suffering, only to end up in a deeper pit than before. Renounce that world and separate yourselves from it! Your life is worth much more than that. Actually, the Lord deemed your life so worthy that He chose to die to redeem it. Don't sell yourself to a kingdom that is beneath you.
I strongly encourage you to commit to the journey through the narrow gate because the longest way to a destination is by taking a shortcut.
'Praise the Lord.
Praise God in his sanctuary;
praise Him in his mighty heavens.
Praise Him for his acts of power;
praise Him for his surpassing greatness.
Praise Him with the sounding of the trumpet,
praise Him with the harp and lyre,
praise Him with timbrel and dancing,
praise Him with the strings and pipe,
praise Him with the clash of cymbals,
praise Him with resounding cymbals.
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord .
Praise the Lord .' Psalms 150
Lord God, we praise You because we know that as Your children worship You and dwell in Your praise, they are being set free from their captivity, healed from their illnesses, restored in their complete identity made in Your image, and reconciled to You in love.
We sing Your praises and exalt Your Name, Lord!
It is in the Mighty Name of Jesus Christ that we prayed and praised, Amen.
With love,
Elvira
'“Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’
“Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock.
“But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall.”'
